new boy

this past weekend was actually pretty good. usually i only have one good day on the weekends and the other day is just ok. but this time both days were superb lol. my neighbor kyler and i hung out a lot and are now actually together. i really like him, and i think it will be good for me to date a good guy rather than the usual deuce bag. today, we kinda scared him off cause me, haylie, caity and jill are all extremely crazy, i felt bad. i also think that maybe this relationship will help ground me. rather than going all out on the weekends and then regretting it the following day, i think i'm going to be able to control myself better if that makes any sense. but, i really hope that this works out better than previous relationships.

school!

so, i'm back at school again. its nice to be on a schedule once more, and i think im going to really like my classes this quarter. the only problem is that in 3 out of my 4 classes there is a guy that i have hooked up with in the past... basically i cant go to school anymore. but its ok, cause 2 or the 3 classes are really big, so i wont have to talk to him, which would be mega awkward. but, i have a new suite mate, and i love her already. i think that we will get along really well. anyways, that is school so far.

also, im going to try and update this thing more often than what i have been doing!!

love ya all!!

Trying to be happy

So, as my first blog entry, I guess I'll start out with some recent events. Basically, my grandma died yesterday. In a way I guess its a good thing, because now shes out of her misery. She wasn't happy with all the hospital stuff, being in a nursing home and every thing. I was just used to her being around. The doctors kept telling us that she was going to die within the next few days, but she never did. So I never really thought that she was going to die. When I saw my grandpa, it made everything even worse. How he kept sobbing... it was sooooo sad. I'm getting better though. I'm still sad because I will never see her again, but I'm coming to terms with it.